I can’t write my wrongs by putting them in a song
But I can show ‘em just how enough pressure could birth a star
I say a prayer that I don’t fall under it
It’s like a jungle and this world can be so humbling
Just give me the strength so I can reach the sky
Put wings to my words and teach me how to fly
It’ll be just fine even if I don’t receive a reply
Maybe no one’s there to see me through the times
But ain’t that what faith is so I need to try
And at the very least I’ll give myself peace of mind
So I can stay on track ‘till I get a call back
‘Till it rains dogs cats—anagram for God’s acts
And be what I can be, nothing you could hand me
Couldn’t see the grand scheme never had a plan B
Just a flight of fancy but enough charm to soothe a savage beast
My mentality like an elite athlete’s
Put a needle to these track marks on that turntable
Like that first hit when you couldn’t say no
And until now going back to the same dope hoping the pain goes
They say heaven’s a state of mind—was yours in vain though?
With the kind of high you’ve been chasing
Does it have you attuned to reality or trying to escape it
Did you find God in that feeling? ‘Cause you were out for more
Whenever it seemed like he don’t come around no ‘more
Did it make you feel like a higher power?
Flying too close to the sun until you spiral downward
Everything glorified in those storylines, you tell me war stories I
Could never relate to ‘cause I would’ve been mortified
We’re more than a diagnosis you’re still my brother
No matter how much it changed you
But maybe in some ways our roads ain’t too far apart though
‘cause I’ve been tryna catch lightning in a botthe
And I’ve been on a high tryna find God
Wasted out of my mind and I’m gone
I’ve been going mad where the times are
Tell me am I wrong
And where will I be when that feeling goes
Been tryna make it last it’s all I know
Been taking time off, I’ve been tryna heal
Pleasure and pain to let me know it’s real
They say the lie is beautiful and the truth is ugly
Responsibility with that power, hope it won’t corrupt me
Like it did those dastardly cops wanting to harass me
Without due process over a bag of weed
‘cause I’d either be a prisoner of war against them
Or pay them off and perpetuate the problems in the system
So what kind of sentence would I need to finish
To make a difference that’ll justify my means?
That’s an analogy for what it takes to be free
This case that I plead, is it all in my head?
‘Till I become like the monsters that I’ve been against
From every hypocritical thing I ever said
To the realest thing I ever penned
I pray to see the world like a kid again
So full of innocence, so full of ignorance
Blinded or wide-eyed, it’s a fine line
Did I make the most of what I was given?
How wasted is my mind? How have I wasted my time?
If I live only for myself, could that be my worst sin?
Even if I stayed on my grind with this tunnel vision?
Some people look in the wrong things
And will never find what they’re missing
But I’ve been trying to see beyond my horizon
If I could inspire and give ‘em that feeling that’s so electrifying
I promise I’ll be satisfied, that’s why I live like this
Lets me know I am alive, but
Have I been doing too much? Do I need to slow down?
They say do what you want ‘cause you’re grown now
Hoping this feeling lasts forever
Hoping this feeling lasts forever
Have I been doing too much? Do I need to slow down?
They say do what you want ‘cause you’re grown now
Hoping this feeling lasts forever
Hoping this feeling lasts forever
And I’ve been on a high tryna find God
Wasted out of my mind and I’m gone
I’ve been going mad where the times are
Tell me am I wrong
And where will I be when that feeling goes
Been tryna make it last it’s all I know
Been taking time off, I’ve been tryna feel
Pleasure and pain to let me know it’s real
So I can heal
So I can heal
So I can heal
So I can heal
And I’ve been on a high tryna find God
Wasted out of my mind and I’m gone
I’ve been going mad where the times are
Tell me am I wrong
And where will I be when that feeling goes
Been tryna make it last it’s all I know
Been taking time off, I’ve been tryna heal
Pleasure and pain to let me know it’s real
